Dear Pumpkin,
Time is really flying by fast. I’m now two months behind on your blog updates, and my blog hasn’t had a non-baby post in quite a while. I really wonder if my blogging days are on their way out. At least with social media sites, I’m still able to share updates, photos, and videos with friends and family. I still prefer to have everything saved in one place though. We’ll see…I’m making it a goal to continue with these posts until your first birthday. Sadly though, that isn’t very far off now.

So smiley!
The big excitement in May was that you learned to crawl. You quickly progressed from pulling yourself up onto your knees and rocking, to crawling backwards, to scooting both legs forward like your were hopping. Finally, at Maker’s Faire with the enticement of a shiny piece of scrap paper, you crawled forward. Thank goodness for cell phones – I got it on video!

First Forward Crawl
We continue to take you on nature hikes, celebrating Mother’s Day at a wildlife refuge, Papa’s birthday at Fort Funston, and a random Saturday afternoon at Muir Woods. You fall asleep so easily in the baby carrier, but when you’re awake, we try to point out birds, let you feel the texture of the tree bark, and you love the wind blowing in your face.

Chilly Hike at Fort Funston

Lunch Break at Muir Woods
Photos from these daytrips are posted online:
We got a car this month and headed down to San Diego to see Uncle Mikey – your first US roadtrip and tent camping. You slept most of the time in the car, and when you’d wake we’d find a nearby park to stop for break. On the way there and the way back, we camped and you did great! You loved the sand, the campfire, and the flashlight. You had a little trouble falling asleep in the tent on your own, but I was able to lay down with you until you did and then sneak back out for s’mores. :)

In the play tent, while we set up the sleeping tent
Photos from the roadtrip and camping are posted online:
One of the day trips we did in San Diego was to the desert. It was warm, about 70 degrees, but it felt a lot hotter. I would say it was the second time (first time was the movies at Christmas) that I questioned my parenting in “should I really be taking a baby here,” but it worked out fine. We went on a short hike to a little oasis and when we got there, we stripped you down and dipped you in the water. We also took many breaks and gave you extra water from our water bottles.

Water Break
Photos from our desert exploration are online:
Speaking of bottles, one of the most challenging things this month was weaning you from breastfeeding. It was a tough decision that really played with my emotions. I’m sure my change in hormones didn’t help either. I felt like you weren’t getting as much milk from me as you wanted, so I thought I’d try to supplement 1 or 2 bottles of formula a day. Maybe I did it wrong, but after a week or two, my milk supply was gone.
Thankfully, you are happy with formula and don’t seem to even remember breastfeeding. Honestly, I prefer it too – I feel like I’m not rushing you anymore, and I love looking in your eyes and talking to you when you eat, rather than covering your head for our privacy. However, I did feel a lot of guilt – feel free to use this as blame for issues later in your life. :)
The hard part was the (indirect) peer pressure – I really felt like I was the only mom stopping breastfeeding before a year. I kept hearing, “you did your best,” like it’s a consolation prize for not making it past 7 months. It’s surprising that even strangers will ask you about this – “Aww, how old is she? Are you breastfeeding?” I wasn’t expecting the strong opinions people would have for how I’m choosing to feed you. I can say now though, I have become a strong supporter in mom’s choosing how long to breastfeed their own children – not just for those who want to go longer than usual, but those that want to go shorter too.

Striped shirt (was the striped dress she wore home from the hospital)
Well, that’s all for now. You’re still an extremely happy, active, and alert baby and you bring so much joy to our lives. I’ve posted more photos from this month online:
Hugs and kisses,
Mama
P.S. To the readers out there, my photos are still posted on PicasaWeb, but I’m using Google+ (Google’s new social networking site) to display them. You should be able to view them without an account, but if you would like an invite, just send me your email address. I have a email link in my sidebar.